… Wake up. This is real life.
What’s best for you is not what’s best for your family. You want to be happy, but you’re filling your heart with empty promises and pseudo-joy. You’ll take the first option, just as long as that means you won’t have to be lonely. The fighting stops when you decide to use reason and drop your senselessness. There are no clean breaks. You will always leave a scar. How big a scar is up to you. You will always have worries. You are a worrier by nature. All you did is cover up your old worries with new ones you’ll pay no mind to. Everything is not okay.
You never quite learned how to deal with your problems. Running away from them never worked in the past, so why would it work now? Running away never solves anything; it only prolongs the inevitable. Instead of being the adult that you are, you choose to dip at the first sight of conflict. I’ve seen high school couples overcome bigger obstacles. I’ve seen children with better problem-solving skills. You have no tact. You have no guts. You’re stuck in your world of make-believe and stitched seams that are ripping as you sleep.
You want Love, but you have no idea what that is, do you?
Your past is no excuse for your actions. This is the present. Today. Right here. Right now. Love doesn’t mean easy. Love doesn’t mean perfect. Love doesn’t mean no problems. Love doesn’t mean no tears. Love is what makes it worth it when you face all these things. Love overcomes. Love does not run away. Love does not cut ties. Love does not disappear.
To have and to hold
from this day and onward,
for better and for worse,
for richer and for poorer,
in sickness or in health,
to love and to cherish
‘till death do you part.Love is not a lie.
December 2011
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“i will never be whole until the day You come.”
“Even still, be faithful with what you have.”
I’m dreaming of long roads, far away places, and quiet mountains. As long as one day they’re with you.
Mind in one place, heart in another.
Chiodos - Notes in Constellations
We dance around, just like constellations.
You’re keeping me awake at night, you make my body warm.
Why is it so difficult to find somewhere quiet?
i don’t have to be anywhere tomorrow. ANYWHERE.
i am free to do as i wish. i honestly can’t even remember the last day this was true. i’m about to go to the gym and i’m gonna stay up forever tonight just because i can. ahaha why am i so stoked about this.
For the first time since March, I did not go to church this morning. I didn’t feel like pretending I was still the youth pastor, and I haven’t been enjoying church in a while. This is what we did instead.
We woke up around 6:30, and cuddled with our beautiful kitten for a while. Back to sleep, woke up at 8:30 and enjoyed cups of tea, smoothies and cereal. Off to the beach for husband to do surf life saving, while I sat on the beach and watched his race.
We came home, had leftover lasagne for lunch, then took our boards back to the beach where we stayed out in the water for over an hour. Husband taught me the best way to catch ways. The weather and water was gorgeous and it was so much. I got tired and went to lay in the sun and read til husband was finished.
We bought ice-cream on the way home. We’ve just had showers and are going to go get hot chips for tea and eat them back at the beach, before we come home to put up the Christmas tree tonight.
This is the way Sundays are meant to be. For the first time in months I feel relaxed.
God is good.
this. this is what sundays are for. not to mention the fact that being able to pick up & be at the beach all day is probably one of my biggest dreams, but you know.
