i’m supposed to go out for another girls night tonight but i just got home from work and i want to sleep for days. i wish i could just pause life so i could sleep for a day or so and then press resume. wouldn’t that be so cooool guys
we have a guy at work who regularly comes in to fix the debit/visa machines when they malfunction. i’ve worked there for four years though and i’ve never met him until this morning.
he’s maybe late 30s/early 40s, bosnian, gay and unbelievably kind. he was there before the restaurant opened and i spoke with him for probably twenty minutes. usually if i’m talking with someone who i’ve randomly met (especially if they’re older than me) i am a bit hesitant to divulge too much about myself, although i do try to be as nice as i possibly can. admittedly, sometimes i even try to speed up the conversation if they’re not too interesting (don’t lie, you do it too!). this man, though… he was so different, so inspiring, very kind and unreal perceptive. he called me out on being too comfortable with my life, not taking risks enough and not taking nearly enough adventures. he was just so incredibly complementary as well. told me it was a joy meeting me. we said goodbye and i gave him my email because he had some art and psychology stuff he wanted to recommend.
later in the middle of the lunch rush he came in again and brought me a flower, said it was a pleasure to meet me and he hopes we meet again. a flower! some of the staff thought it was a little too much for him to do this but honestly, he’s gay and is not veering from that anytime soon - not to mention he was the nicest man i’ve ever met. literally nothing sketchy about him. he’s hilarious, he’s got good fashion sense and he’s just a genuine guy.
the encounter entirely made my day. there is still wonderful people yet to be discovered in the world.
had my first statistics exam last night… it didn’t go as well as the midterm did, but it’s over and done with and i’m pretty proud all things considered. one more summer term to go.
unreal renewed sense of purpose in love: i have tim keller and soren kierkegaard to thank for this (go read “Works of Love” by Kierkegaard). loving someone is not just a phrase you say to describe how you feel and i’ve always known that, don’t get me wrong. but it’s only been in the last few weeks that i understand more clearly how to love with purpose and beauty so that you call out the best in a person. love is building someone up from the very ground and making decisions with them that allow them to become the best version of themselves. i love michael so much and i can’t believe how glad i am for every single thing we’ve gone through together.
God moves mountains (just in case you needed to be reminded). how lucky are we to be loved this much, by someone so unconditionally faithful?
i’m working a ton lately - it’s actually so great! i’ve been able to save quite a bit of money in the last few months. i’ve decided to move to manitoba in two years for my masters and i’ve got most of that saved. the next big thing i’d like to save for is a car so i can drive out there myself.
oh, and i bought an iphone. pretty stoked about it.
“I was desperate to touch God because I had come to the conclusion that all flesh was grass, it was chasing after the wind, a vanity, here today and gone tomorrow. I needed to touch something that would last.”—Misty Edwards
“I will love you like God, because of God, mighted by the power of God. I will stop expecting your love, demanding your love, trading for your love, gaming for your love. I will simply love. I am giving myself to you, and tomorrow I will do it again. I suppose the clock itself will wear thin its time before I am ended at this altar of dying and dying again.
God risked Himself on me. I will risk myself on you. And together, we will learn to love, and perhaps then, and only then, understand this gravity that drew Him unto us.”—Don Miller.
the trip was entirely needed and it was awesome to be around my family. ten days is a long time away though… it’s really nice to be home.
i’ve missed two intense stats classes, and i have to read up on ethical research considerations for interviews with indigenous students for my thesis, and i have to email my thesis supervisor about it all, and i have to work every day this week…
but in the midst of all that madness i came home to, there is love in everything everywhere and that is so much more than enough. i can’t even.
i’m so happy okay. more another day, promise. but right now all you need to know is everything is wonderful and God is good.